Hi, My Name is Amy and I’m a Fatty
I am sure I wasn’t always like this. It’s weird because now that I look back, I don’t really know when I let myself go. It was probably back in middle school or the beginning of high school. I didn’t really care about what I ate or what I drank. Chips, soda, candy… I didn’t work out. I didn’t play sports. I had a job, but I didn’t really move around at my job.
It wasn’t until just a few months ago that I started realizing that my weight was a problem. I had to buy clothes in sizes I never thought I would need, I started hating the way I looked in the mirror. My mom nags me all the time about how I am fat. She will tell me to my face. At first it hurt. But then I thought of what she was saying and I AM fat! I am a fatty! I know she was probably saying it for my health. I am not the healthiest person in the world and I noticed that as I thought about it.
At 23 and five feet I am what people would call a bit chunky. I am not ugly and I can usually hide the weight under my clothes, but it still gets to me. I KNOW how I look in the mirror. I see how the clothes hug to my body… to my fat. Sometimes I don’t even know why I have a boyfriend, or what he sees in me. While he is in shape and he has the ideal body for his height, I don’t. Boys have never called me hot or sexy, I have always been cute. I have never been slim or sporty, just chunky.
I hate these words. I have to do something about the fat that has made itself so comfortable on my body. I thought about it and decided to go on a diet. Mind you, I have been on several diets before and failed, because I gave in. I always give in. For some reason the cause was never as great or as severe back then. But now its big, now I HAVE to do something about it. I am going to diet, and I am going to stick to it, and I will eat healthy, and I will work out.
I have to do these things for myself. To see a smaller, better me. I have been on my diet since Monday December 3, 2007. I lost 3 pounds last week and I am sticking to this diet, it is the last thing I do. Maybe one day when I work up the courage to put up my before pictures like Fat Man I will be able to look back at the old me.
Welcome Amii, let’s get this done…
I hear ya. I think you have to hit the point where you’re sick of it to do something about it. I got fat before, then I lost 50 pounds, now I’ve gained that back plus some. I’m making a little progress now, but I’m still not working hard enough yet. I don’t have that passion yet, but I’m getting closer. Good luck on your journey.
Awwww… thanks! I am very determined and I really want to do this for me and my health.
Best on luck in your quest! I just wanted to point out that you should be happy for having a boyfriend and someone to share you moments with. I know a lot of good-looking people with great bodies that are just alone; we end up drowning our solitude at night and move on. Take advantae of this support system that you have and go for it.
Cheers.
I would love to lost a few pounds too. I need to lose about 50 pounds to get to my ideal weight. I wish I have vey much enthusiasm..
It’s great to see that you’re motivated. I wanted to loose a few extra pounds for years, but I never actually did it until I decided enough was enough, and I wanted to lose the extra weight no matter what. I think finding the right motivation is the key.
What was final straw? What moment made you say enough is enough?
I think mindsets are key. They either keep you going or defeat you. I like how Michael Gerber explains – The Fat Guy and The Skinny Guy personalities.
A friend of mine who successfully meets his weight goals uses a different strategy. He doesn’t fight his weight gain. He does periodic “tune ups.” He drops weight 2-3 times per year, by design. He’s mastered a technique where he can drop 30-40 lbs in ~month.
What I like about his approach is it avoids the all-or-nothing trap. He’s done this for several years, so it’s a system that works for him. To each his own.
Good luck fat man.
Amy you have to do it for yourself and if you believe and are welling to make the necessary changes it will happen. Your mom may not have said it the right way but calling you fat may have been to only way to say she was worried. You say you are/were a student as USF(which one?) I attended USF (University of South Florida) just curious.